i thought i’d never have to feel this way ever again

it doesn’t hurt as worse the second time

but it feels like the same thing

except this time i’ve been replaced and no one bothered to tell me

you never bothered to tell me why you stopped talking to me

you never bothered to tell me who i was to you

you never bothered to tell me anything once you met her

you never bothered to tell me about her

you just left me hanging and you moved on but i didn’t because you gave me no closure there was just me then her and nothing in between one day everything just stopped and you never told me why

you stopped talking to me 24/7 and started talking to her even more and just stopped talking to me and never told me why it was nothing gradual it all just stopped and now there’s her and you never fucking told me you never bothered to fucking tell me why would you do this why would you replace me and think i wouldn’t find out? jesus fucking christ i’m not stupid i’d find out i have friends who know things and jesus christ i don’t even know what i’m feeling, everyone knew except me, which is funny because i thought we were still friends at least. yeah you may have stopped always talking to me but when we’re together we’re still friends so why wouldn’t you just tell me jesus fucking christ. i don’t know if you know but goddammit you replaced me and you hurt me and you think it’s nothing because you never saw me in pain because i’m better than that and i wouldn’t dangle it in your face like that and be awful. i thought you changed but you didn’t, no you’re exactly the same, just to someone else. fuck you, fuck you, fuck you. too bad you’ll never know because i can’t be mad at you, i just can’t, do you even realize what you did? i don’t know if you do. fuck you. i know you care but i care more and it hurts even worse that someone i care about a lot wouldn’t tell me something like this. i know i never asked but you could’ve explained yourself 2 and a half months ago when shit was happening and you could’ve told me everything but you never did and you probably never will. you don’t tell me shit and you replaced me and being around you hurts so bad and feels so good at the same time. i want to hate you but i can’t because i don’t think you realize what you did and you’re still my friend and goddammit someone listen. someone just listen to me for once. can things just fucking work out? why would you do this. why would you do this? why would you do this and not tell me? i can’t hate you because i love you too much, not as a lover but as a person, as a friend, as i don’t even know anymore. why wouldn’t you tell me? why would you just replace me? what the hell was i to you?